6 Months. That’s how much longer I have until I start a journey across the world sharing God’s word and love. And as much as I would love to skip ahead 6 months and skip over the stress of fundraising and packing. I have to focus on the now. I have to be present in where God has my feet planted.
Where my feet are planted right now
For the past month, I have been working at a Christian Summer Camp called Woodland. When I started this job, I didn’t know what I was stepping into but I knew one thing: God was calling me to work on my servant’s heart. Now, we all have a servant’s heart because Jesus had a servant’s heart and it’s Christ who lives in us. But that doesn’t mean we can’t grow the gifts we are given. For me, I needed to learn and am still learning about ministry and serving others. At Woodland, i’m learning that a lot. From long hours to overcoming fears to fun nights to some bad accidents; it’s been a long month of learning and doing. It’s been amazing seeing God work through me and to see him changing me to how he sees me (not I see myself or how the world may see me). But as amazing as it is, it’s also been very hard spiritually and mentally. I have been struggling with the fact that i’m so busy at Woodland, i’m missing out on things God has placed me in outside of Woodland. Because of this, I started gaining a mindset that I wasn’t doing enough for God’s kingdom. I started blaming myself when I was too tired to check in on friends or when I had to miss church for work. And instead of turning to God and my mentors, I backed away. I started putting up a front that everything was okay and that I was happy spiritually but my spirit was cracking. Now, I know all the right answers and all the Biblical verses that say don’t do this. I know and its still hard. It’s hard because God didn’t intend for life to be easy. He intended on life to show us how badly we need him. So as I was struggling with the mindset that I wasn’t doing enough and honestly saw myself as a failure. God saw a daughter who needed him. God saw me and because of his grace, I’m forgiven for backing away when I should’ve ran closer. I’m forgiven for ever thinking something of his creation was a failure. I’m forgiven for trying to take my life and hold on to instead of letting him have it. Though it sounds easy while writing it out and as you read it but it’s a long process. It’s failing, then realizing you need help, then repenting and asking for forgiveness. And it’s okay if you have to keep redoing the process because thats what I did. I’m still in that process as I write this. But what does this have to do with where my feet are planted. When God placed me at Woodland, he told me I would gain a servant’s heart that I haven’t had before. But what he didn’t tell me was that I was gonna gain a yearning heart for him. I was gonna learn i’m not enough when I do it by myself but with him I can do anything, with him I am enough, with him I am not a failure. So God planted my feet in place where he knew what was gonna happen. Where he knew I needed to be to better his kingdom. So my prayer for you and for myself is this:
Dear Heavenly Father,
Abba we ask that you open our hearts in the place we are now
we ask that no matter hardships or setbacks
that your light shines through us all
Abba we ask that we run towards you and that we fully step into the unknown of you.
In your name we pray
to the Father of the Son and the Son of the Father
Amen.
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I hope this post gave a little more insight on what God is doing in my life now as I prepare for the WR. If there is anything I mentioned that you would love to talk more about please let me know! Thank you for taking your time to read and if you feel God tugging at your heart to donate or support in anyway (prayer, events, even sharing) feel free to send me a email or contact me on my socials listed below! If theres anything you need prayer on comment below so us, as a community can pray for you! Sending Love <3
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